oh my god. yesterday, IV1 people went to ateneo and up and they went with me to my duckpin class. lo and behold they see me talking to a classmate of mine and decide that we look good together. oh my god. i was only talking to him because we were kas1 classmates before. okay fine. i already thought he was kind of cute back then but my other classmates already had crushes on him so that turned me off. that and the fact that i stalked him on facebook and found out that he already has a girlfriend. this sucks. it's so true that the more people talk about it, the more you get interested in that person. i've decided that i do have a crush on him as he reminds me of charlieissocoollike. this is crazy since i get nervous around pretty boys. and i haven't talked to him since.
good lord. i hate having a crush on a real guy.
and it's the shallow kind of crush where it's just based on his looks. i don't know anything about him beyond that. and with what i'm feeling now, i may never do. shit. i'm making this sound so much more serious than it really is. damn friends.
i must say this is a new experience. i've never really hung out with people who doesn't treat boys as just friends. these friends of mine have been in relationships. boys have talked to them and expressed interest.
sometimes i feel like i'm the ugliest person in the group. they are all really pretty in their own way and i feel like the ugly duckling of the group with my pimply face and horrendous legs. i guess it has something to do with the fact that i don't think i'm pretty enough to have any boy interested in me. no boy has ever made it seem otherwise.
heavens. i'm growing up.
this is so horrible i cannot even.
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