Buckling Down

okay. enough fooling around. it's time to buckle down. first day of november and i'm declaring the sembreak to be officially over.

it's not so much a choice as it is forced upon me. second batch run results are out and i officially have 18 units. i'm quite happy with it though i'm not sure if i should cancel CW10 or Eng 30. i've been getting texts from my orgs about the various work i have to do and before i go ahead and feel overwhelmed all over again. i'm just gonna start pacing myself and breathing. i know i've just got to calendar everything to make sure it stays in perspective. i can do second sem. i know i can.

STEPS TO GETTING BACK ON TRACK

#1 Fix sleeping pattern - after watching my binondo girl (which, let's face it, has become part of my routine) i need to go straight to bed and crank up my lullabies playlist

#2 Treat face again - sure, continue with acnotin but start getting the facial treatments going again. in the morning, make sure to wash face and apply the toner. at night, during binondo girl commercials, wash face, apply toner, and apply moisturizer. it shouldn't have to be so hard to accomplish.

#3 Start reading up - 99.2 is upon me and i have yet to crack open my accounting book. i need to do that if i want to get in the 1 - 1.75 grade range. i can do that, i know i can.

#4 Enough with the fun - come on, chica, surely you're sick of watching TV and surfing the net by now. go do something more productive (refer to #3) buckle down and get your life together!

#5 Sort out priorities with the org - i know i can handle the various positions i've taken within my 3 orgs. i just need to give the proper attention to each one so that i don't let anyone down.

• ABAM - Publicity associate
• CAP - Communications Staff
• AIESEC - Finance Manager for OGX

that's what i got so far. i'm gonna keep adding to this list and use it as motivation for the rest of the sem. i need to obtain US-ship somehow. i need to achieve self-actualization goddammit!

oh, and

#6 STOP READING FANFICTION

#7 Save more money - seriously my bank account may be frozen at the moment but my cash on hand is seriously dwindling! gotta save more!

which reminds me, i say i'm getting back on track, but where does this track lead. i need to list down my goals too.

GOALS

#1 Get good grades in all subjects. Perform well. Apply myself in my academics. That's what I'm in college for. Learn. Study. Be the best I can be. This will help me in the future.

# Look good - let's face it (pun intended), people who are better-looking tend to have better chances in making it in my field of concentration. when it's about marketing or publicity, or confidence-generation in general, it's mighty important to look like someone people want to work with. i have to achieve that by working on my face and my legs. my two major physical flaws. or my skin in general now that i think about it. nothing's wrong with my face and legs. nothing wrong that i can fix at least. i just have really bad skin.

#3 Apply myself in my organizations - these are just huge learning platforms that are irreplaceable in the long run. i know there's a lot that can be learned from here. i just need to be more mobile so i can take advantage of it all. oh, and just generally more courageous about taking risks like leadership roles and whatnot.

# Be a good person - this includes being a good daughter, a good sister, a good best friend, a good friend, a good classmate, a good kabarkada, a good orgmate, ALL OF IT. just stop getting caught up in all the drama and labels. people are addicted to happiness. i can't gain it if all i do is look at someone else's. stop being jealous. work with what you've got. people don't treat you fairly? never let them know.

FINALLY, REMEMBER THAT IT'S GOOD TO DREAM AND WORK HARD.